today is seriously a tiring day ;
not tiring as in physically tired because of dance ;
but mentally tired ;
;x
and i felt super sorry ;
esp to those whom really cared for me ;
i know you all are worried for me ;
worrying i cant cope with my ccas and stuffs ;
and im trying my best to cope everything at once ;
and everything seemed not right ;
and i seriously feel sad ;
when i HAVE to choose either of them :
DANCE or CSCC ?
specially to shina :
im really sorry ;
that i kinda pissed ya off ;
cause i have to keep asking you to teach me stuffs ;
both in terms of studies and dance ;
sometimes i really in a lost ;
sometimes i really in the verge of just giving up everything ;
sometimes i really dontknow what to do ;
sometimes i really wanna get things right ;
sometimes i ...
i know ccas have been hindering my studies ;
as i have been spending too much time on them ;
neglecting my studies ;
hence my GPA like kanasai ;
but then ;
i wanna try things out in the fullest ;
i dont wanna give up just like that ;
if so ;
everything i did for the past 1 year ;
*poof* gone just like that ;
how sad it can be uh .
nevermind ;
perhaps i have to really really really manage my time well for the next acad year ;
NO sleeeping in class ;
NO facebook-ing in class ;
NO petsociety-ing in class ;
blablablaaaaa .
and i neeeda brush up my dance ;
sooo many things to learn !
just because i missed one training and one session !
ZZZZ !
JIAYOUUU !
