hmmm . ok .
now going to update on the "IM GIFTED so are you" program ...
hmmm . this program is really fun ; funny ; and also motivative ; soul-searching ; finding one self ....
before this program i thought that this program is like really gonna to be boring and alll ...
but going through this program really can say change my life ,,,
cause im not going to slack around like what i used to now .
and also i would TRY not to like argue to my parents esp to my dad ...
hmmm . can say i have a high-esteem cause everytime when sometimes something bad happen i would look on a brighter side ...
but the only thing that i cant really look on a good side is whatever my dad said to me .
cause still remembered that i was sec 2 ; he kept calling me stupid and dumb ...
everytime compare me with my relatives ;
everytime like kept digging the past and said me ;
got one time he kept all my things in a plastic bag ;
then i shouted at him ; he simply hit me with it .
and suddenly my hand was bleeding ; cause theres a vase inside the bag ...
lols. there was also a sad thing that happened only threee days ago ...
after the first day of the program ... that time was around 9 plus .
and i scared to walk the shortcut back home ; therefore accompany my friends to the bus interchange then i went home .
coincidenly saw my godbro alvvin ; went back home with him cause he only stayed the block next to mine .
then my dad saw me and him together ; then he thought that hes my boyfriend ...
and he on the spot scolded me ; and i simply cant stand it and shouted back to him .
went back home ; i have cried non-stop ...
cause he simply dont want to believe that alvin is just a friend to me .
luckily i didnt told him that hes my kor ; otherwise the outcome would be disastrous.
then i asked him " daddy , why you simply just dont want to believe me ? "
do you know what he replied ?
he said " i dont believe anyone ; as i only believe myself and my own eyes , nothing else "
do you know that those words really hurt me aloads aloads ?
that night i simply cried to sleeep ...
the next day on the program amin asked what is the most important thing that a family should have ?
i would say that its trust ; without trust there would be loads of misunderstandings among the family .
until now me and my dad didnt talk much since that incident ...
really hope that he can change his thinking and mindset .
hope that my parents could encourage me more rather than insulting and comparing me with other people ....
